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I Kept My 2011 New Year’s Resolution

December 30, 2011

I close my eyes and involuntarily hold my breath as my fingers hover over the Enter key on the computer.  Quickly I push send, and another blog has been posted.  I wonder if I’ve gone too far with this one.  Do people want to read about my accident prone life?  Are stories about my cat throwing up hairballs offensive?  Have I shared too many personal details?  I resist calling my parents to ask them if they’ve read the latest blog entry but half expect one of them to call and ask, “What were you thinking?”  How quickly could I un-post an entry? 

One year ago, I set a goal for myself.  I would post a new story every week for one solid year.  Only once – on 9/11 – did I resort to recycling old material, and even that one was revised and rewritten.  Through surgeries, travel out of state, preparing for speaking engagements, and a host of other potential show stoppers, I pressed on; and as of this moment, when my fingers stopped their hesitation and pressed send, I’ve done it.  This is very likely the first New Year’s Resolution I’ve ever kept, and it was not easy. 

Would it be SO bad if I missed one week?  I asked myself several times when I was struggling to come up with a new idea.

Sure I could have, but I wanted to reach this goal.  I wanted to look back on a year and know that I’d kept a promise to myself.

So much in life is hard!  Keeping promises, doing what’s right, being kind, and thinking of others instead of yourself – all of these things are hard; but perhaps hardest of all is pressing on for God.  As I’ve begun to accept speaking engagements, I have to slice out huge chunks of times to prepare.  Exercising never sounded like so much fun as when I trudge to my office and power up Strong’s online concordance.  Doubt overwhelms me.  Is this really what God wants me to do?  Who wants to listen to me talk anyway?

An hour and a half later I’m engrossed in study; I look up at the clock and wonder where the time went.  That’s when I remember the misgivings I had about publishing Questions from a Single Heart.  Who wants to read about singleness?  I personally hate books on singleness; so why on earth would I write one? 

I strongly felt God urging me to write about my own journey through singleness.  Putting my life out for others to read was not easy.  People now know my weakest areas and a host of my faults, but each time I hesitated, I felt God pushing me to move forward.  Now a year later, I can look back and see why.  People tell me my story made a difference in their lives.  My story helped them to make important, life changing decisions.

The tasks God has given you to do may be very different than mine, but they are no less important.  At this time of the year when everyone is resolving to lose weight, finally get their photo albums organized, or read through BBCs top 100 book list, try setting a different kind of a goal for yourself.  Set one that will help you reach the ultimate prize.

“I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.”  Philippians 3:14

Thank you for accompanying me on my 2011 resolution journey. 

I’m still trying to decide what to resolve for 2012, but I’m sure I’ll share it with you eventually.  In the meantime, Happy New Year!

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10 Comments leave one →
  1. Nancy Clark permalink
    December 30, 2011 9:54 pm

    GOD is good all the time! is was what I resolved to believe in my heart for 2011. There were things that happened that I did not understand and I still do not have any answers for, but I resolved to believe the PERSON, not the PROBLEM. HE became more real to me during this process, and I am grateful that what at first appeared to be an issue actually was just another opportunity to run to the cross and leave that burden there. Repeatedly I became aware that these external circumstances were tools to lead me to Jesus, and be filled with HIM, the author and finisher of my faith. Here it is, almost the last day of 2011 and I am sooo grateful for the constant reminders that HE is faithful and good ALL THE TIME!

    • December 30, 2011 9:57 pm

      What a beautiful resolution for 2011, and you are absolutely right. God is good even when we don’t understand the circumstances surrounding our lives. Thank you for your comment!

  2. Jean Davis permalink
    December 30, 2011 10:55 pm

    Congratulations Laura on reaching your goal. Wow I bet that feels great. Continue writing and encouraging, you just never know who is reading?

    • December 31, 2011 2:31 pm

      Thank you! I often pray that my writing will reach someone who needs to read it; but quite often, my writing is a result of where I’ve been challenged to make changes or because I needed to more fully realize God’s love for me. T

  3. Leah Keller permalink
    December 30, 2011 11:07 pm

    I’m so proud of you that you kept your goal! Your so right, its hard to keep commitments, but sooo worth it! I know I enjoy your writings, and I love that verse Phil. 3:14! 😀

    • December 31, 2011 2:28 pm

      Ah Leah, I didn’t know you were following my blog. It makes my heart glad to see you going on for God.

  4. December 30, 2011 11:48 pm

    So happy you accomplished your personal goal for the year. I’m even happier the Lord has accomplished much through you in your writing and speaking. Blessings in the new year!

    • December 31, 2011 2:27 pm

      Thank you, Mindy. I look forward to what 2012 will bring.

  5. sue permalink
    January 1, 2012 7:27 am

    …please keep writing. I love reading your blog.

    • January 1, 2012 8:24 pm

      Thank you, Sue. I have every intention of continuing to write for this blog. I’m just not sure my resolution will be to blog every single week of 2012. That said, I do have next week’s almost ready to go. 🙂

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